26-year-old Yi Hanbing unmarried mother, her son was 6 years old.
She has no husband, nor will the men. July 5 to contact me, the first thing I hear is a man’s voice, her “shaking a bit,” began a little regret to me that the phone has. I encouraged her to tell her experience. After a moment, she whispered: “Now I do not have too much resentment and hate, I would like to go a good way behind.”
The morning of July 9, Ground Floor, with the rain. After the rain surprisingly fresh air. At this point, the easy way around Hanbing is Kaohsiung, she did not dare to cross the road to the opposite of Wuhan library. She called me to tell her: “I’ll wait for you at the gate.” Her voice jitter then immediately after that meeting, she asked why this was, she said shyly: “I closed their 6 years of a lot of things there is no self-confidence . “
She received injuries have been accustomed to look at suspicious persons and objects around us. Fortunately, however, that she was trying to get rid of the shadow of her restrictions.
Love do not know the age of the beginning
I am very smart to go to school, teachers like me, said I was reading the material block. May be due to poor families, secondary read half of the time, I was forced to drop out of. For this reason, I also secretly hiding in the house crying for a week.
After more than a month, I entered the a hot pot restaurants as a waiter. The store has a chef named Stephen Lang, big my 8-year-old. I am so weak he could normally take care of me very much. I was only 17 years old, is the girl did not grow up on the so-called feelings between men and women know nothing about. But I know he told me, I should also be good for him.
Later, we will together. With love, lost my mind slowly subsides, and even started to think: “If life can be accompanied in his side, the human world is absolutely the happiest thing.”
Shortly afterwards, the boss feel bad business, it is necessary to transfer Dianzitou asked Stephen Lang will not receive access. Considered for a long time, he picked up. The subsequent two years, we have not been romantic, but continue to work from down to dusk to make money. Those days for me, physically tired, but ease of mind that life. We have also paid off, two years down, we earn more than a dozen million. Want to buy a house when I proposed marriage, but he did not agree, would like to go into business to Louis Vuitton Bags .
Subsequently, however, something went wrong. One is the business more difficult than before, Dianzitou forced to switch off, another is that I became pregnant. He argued that the child was born, I imagined, they agreed.
Done a unwed mothers
Have children, I went to the outskirts of his hometown Baotai, Stephen Lang remain in Hankow small businesses. Stephen Lang gives the impression particularly honest. Then I am confident that he will definitely marry me, because I am diligent, able to endure hardship. Could never thought that he later betrayed me.
Each month, he came to my house to see me once, carefully asked me what the body does not abnormal response. I will tell him one by one. Whenever I hear that out of his mouth, he will stop music and dedicated dog. It looks completely like a man about to when the father’s performance. Meet short-term for me is a very happy one thing, my heart filled with hope and confidence for life.
8 months pregnant when one day I suddenly pregnant to look at Hankow Stephen Lang. To get to where we rented hut that, I see there are lights, I did not knock on the door of any response. At that time, I have some urgency, hard to beat on the door. Finally, it is Stephen Lang opened the door, lying on my bed I do not know a woman. This scene I have ever seen in the movie, did not expect that now appear in my life has been. I do not know why, I am very calm, on the woman said: “You go get dressed.” I did not say a word with Stephen Lang, find a few pieces of their own clothes away in silence.
After returning home, I am lying in bed without food or drink in a few days, determined to remove the child to the hospital. Love has gone, keep “him” what is the use? At the entrance to the hospital when my children started to kick me in the stomach, I am in pain. Perhaps “he” is aware of her mother do not conducive to “he” things may be said to protest against the bar. Thought I had of being soft-hearted. Just at this time my mother came, she looked at me and said firmly: “The ‘he’ was born, the mother will help you with.”
Hanbing easily removed from the bag two photographs, said to me: “This is my son’s photo in the Zhongshan Park, when he was little more than 2 years old. He was very cute, is my most important spiritual sustenance.” She the eyes of his warm eyes, but also the smile.
Six months when his son, Stephen Lang has come to my home, asked his son away. I categorically say that I will be one of the children brought up. Then, I have been wronged and suffering will soon be almost crushed me. Relatives around her son’s father asked me where I will say that he lied in the military, can not come back. During that time, I hate the whole people have been surrounded. Stephen is the wave ruined my life! Sister and mother I do not any person other than the words, never smiled. I only hope is: the son will quickly grow up and how he will treat education woman!
Is no longer any doubt
In 2000, the 3-year-old son has been, and I followed her sister to the Hankou business.
In Hankow days, every night, I always agitated mind,in bed, think of all the past, I feel like falling into a black hole like. Although not too much regret, but I do not know where their own future. In recent years, loneliness and solitude, I can only rely on reading books to pass the time, so short-sighted eyes.
March 11 this year, I went to Jiangsu to see a business friend, incidentally, from where more goods into the back. Because at that time too radical, just buy an arrangement. At Louis Vuitton Bag , I went to the dining car to eat. Almost all the seats full. I point a tomato omelet, looked around, hoping to find a place to sit. Then, suddenly a man said to me: “Come on, you sit here.” Then, he moved to the inside of the past.
Also strange that day, I was sitting later, for the usual, I do not accept the strange man has never given me help.
I only bow to eat, while on the finished. Is preparing to leave, the man I word all the remaining tomato scrambled eggs into his bowl, stirring the rice to finished. This let me could not help laughing, despite his ordinary clothes, but definitely not a beggar! Why did he do this? All of a sudden my mind more than a few curious sense of two people on the chat up easily.
What he was telling Dongping, Shandong enterprises in Wuhan Representative Office of a person in charge. He knew that I only arrangement, the hurry up a berth in his upper berth.
Next morning, the train to the Lianyungang, where we parted farewell. At that time, I asked what he likes to eat, he said that like to eat noodles, I must say, ask him to return to Wuhan.
I immediately went to the car Yancheng, Dongping sunshine is back. That day, I received his text message: “After knowing you, even if I have nothing, at least you, as well as you deserve me to treasure.” Read these words, I really was very moved. 6 years, I have never had contacts with men, his words made me feel very warm.
3 days later, I returned to Wuhan, Tung Ping than I am early. I called asked him: “free? I ask you to eat noodles.” At that time, we’ll pass the old city, the two sit together and talk very much. The lateness of the hour, we are reluctant to separate. But he is a 38-year-old man, he has a family, while Wuhan will also be responsible for market development, under enormous pressure. I can see that he was like me. Sent me home at the entrance, he said: “Take care!” His eyes revealed his unlimited passion for expression.
After that day, I do not know why, I always think of him. Then recklessly to call him, knows very well that this is wrong, but I was still unable to control their behavior. Slowly, we will have a date. He has been very cautious, never impolite initiatives, the most excessive behavior is more than just looking at me several times. Later, he also knows that the special experience I feel I should not have closed their own on the console me: “You should look for a person to marry off their own back a long way.”
I have to start considering their own way how to back away.
“61,” the Dongping, I, his son went to the Wuhan-Guangzhou play. Go halfway when his son to stop and do not want to go on Dongping tease him: “If you call my father, I will back you!” Son did without hesitation, blurted out: “Daddy!” Son’s voice brittle very bright, full of innocence and childlike, like lightning across the sky together. I was really shocked that this 6 years ago, her son never knew his father who has never cried over my father! Is his a “father” to wake up I hit, I realized that he was looking forward to have a father.
I have to adjust their attitude. If we go on as before, facial expression, his son will not feel happy childhood. I intend to Canton to look at, hoping to find where their own careers. In addition, I’m ready to find a father to his son. These changes are Dongping to me, I am very grateful to him, hoping that he well-being of families, the cause of the smooth.
